Can you say stress?

I wanted to keep up with my blog better but it seems things have really been on a whirl wind lately.

My mom was in the hospital about two weeks ago. She is “okay” for the most part but scared me half to death. She is/was a heavy smoker for almost 48 years. I happened to call her on Thursday (2 weeks ago) and just let her know that she wouldn’t have to keep Amber for me when all I could hear was her whispering. I asked her what was wrong and she told me she couldn’t breathe. I told her to hold on I am calling 911 and will be there asap. I hang up, leave work, get Jeff to dial 911 for me and we are off to her house. The EMS beats us there by a few seconds. She is literaly gasping for air. It was horrible that I couldn’t do anything for her. The paramedics knew what was wrong and gave her O2 immediately. She has CHF and is a smoker. She was going into respiratory distress. I spent that afternoon and part of the night in the ER with her until they admitted her. She got quite a bit of O2 and breathing treatments. She says no more cigarettes and I am praying she holds her end of the bargain. I am just real worried about her. She was just kept overnight but didn’t need the O2 once she got her oxygen level back to her norm. Her norm is 91, they tell me it is because she smokes. But her level got down to 76 % in the ambulance and her lungs were collapsing. I have never been so scared for her. She told me it was the most scared she has ever been. We have been helping her out around her house and doing some things for her but it is hard being she lives alone. I wished she would let us come and take care of her. Believe me there has been talk about this. If anyone still reads my blog, I hope you do blogger buddies please say a prayer for to find strength in herself to regain herself and get better. Thanks everyone.

New year

I really hope I haven’t lost all of my blogger buddies. Please add this link to your blog roll. I had major issues with blogger and hopefully now with using wordpress my troubles are over. I have missed blogging and keeping in touch with all of my friends in blog land. So much has happened in the past year for me. Some good and some bad.

 I have kept up better with myspace but really that isn’t a good place to vent, I have just found old high school friends there. I have been reading everyone’s blogs but haven’t felt like commenting…but trust me I will. Journaling helps me think out my problems and my vents. I haven’t been doing much for “me” lately so I think it is about time. No crafting, no letter writing (much) and just feeling like blah. This new year will bring much more happiness for me and my family. I just know it. So Happy New Year everyone!